I started this blog in the hopes that by continually writing , I might gain some insight as to what my purpose is. Why am I here ? Is it to be a loving wife and stepmother and family member? Or is there something else? Well, I still don’t know what my purpose is, but it’s not as overwhelming a thought as it was before. If I am meant to be a good wife and stepmother , then that’s wonderful. And if I can treat people nicer, even those that annoy me or piss me off, then that’s great. not saying it’s easy, but it’s a great thing to strive for. Who knows what struggles someone else may be going thru and if my smile gives them a second of joy, then awesome. I know i’ll never have that great career, where my work helps people , so let me just take pride in what i do and do it to the best of my ability. I’m inspired today becasue of my cousin Kathi who has been struggling with horrible Lyme disease yet still retains a positive attitude. I wish I had a tenth of her attitude. I’m going to try to be more positive. I’m going to try being more grateful. i don’t need to have this great purpose like a Ghandi or Mother Teresa, i just need to be happy with me, and if i have struggles, so what, everyone does, so let me focus on the solution , not the problem.